well, the past 2 months has been really a busy month that i don't have time to actually take a break and express my feelings out. All thanks to army life. Oh yea talking bout army life one thing I've learn over the spread off the past 2 months is people change when situation change. No difference myself too. I guess mainly I've kinda change for the worst. I tend to get pissed over small things, i get annoyed by people character very easily. I can't stand people very very easily. And most of all I've been very judgmental. I guess things kinda take a turn for the worst. I notice this change. I really hope things will change over these few days given the break that i have.
i am no longer the same guy i was in the past. During my BMT days even though i was in pain i still wanted to endure through. however now things change, ever since i went to SCS i kinda don't have that same drive anymore. i really kinda like wanna give up. Plus the posting to infantry now just makes me feel like giving up more. Why? i really don't know. maybe its just cause of one reason. my fitness level is not there. well i don't know how things gonna go. but i really need this break. i am going to make full use of this break. hopefully things will be better.